Monday - May 7, 2007
Not Thomas & Friends
21:53:06 :: 
I met my “future boyfriend” in my dream this afternoon. His name was Thomas, dark complexion, glasses, curly hair. Well, not as cute as the guy in this picture, but almost look alike 
He made me laugh and I was so happy, until Yayi’s call woke me up
I believe that the name came up as there’s a Thomas I talked to on the phone this morning. He’s Maya’s father 
The curly hair image, I got it when I tried to put in on Cupcake’s picture. Well, I was happy to be happy in my dream even only for few minutes, even though it’s a pathetic happiness…
I talked to Mom too over the phone in my dream. I was asking her permission to stay out of town for few days, and she didn’t let me. She cried and said, if I went out, then she’d be lonely. Those dreams have come back again lately. Sad, frustrating, heart-breaking dreams. I can be very sure that this isn’t what Mom wants, that I feel unhappy when I go to bed. Sometimes I try not to sleep, because I’m afraid that those dreams about Mom will come and haunt me again.
I didn’t go to get the bills paid this afternoon because Miskiyah is still too tired from her long trip from her hometown to Jakarta. I actually also wanted to get some new DVD movies, to kill time.
